What my heart knows about God

Recently I was charged with the task of sitting down and writing what I know about God. However, this is not a "know" as in mere "knowledge". This was meant to be from the heart, from a place of intimacy with Jesus. You can have knowledge about someone and no intimacy, but as you allow intimacy to take place, knowledge comes naturally.

So here, in a raw way, is what my heart KNOWS about the Father:

I know that God loves me more than I could ever love myself or be loved by anyone else.

I know that his is a perfect love. It's perfect, unfailing love because he is faithful and committed to us and not going anywhere. He 100 percent cares about our hearts. He 100 percent cares about my heart.

 If I had it my way I would be a person who is lazy, arrogant, selfish, prideful, insecure, depressed, anxious, and fearful (among other things). But God knows what I need and he knows how to get it to me.

I'm not just talking about physical provision (although he does that as well), I'm referring to what I need to become "complete, lacking nothing" as the apostle Paul states. He continues to raise the bar in my life for what it means to look like him and to follow him.

That is ultimately how I know that his is a perfect love and more spectacular than what I could ever give to myself. He does not hold back from putting me in uncomfortable places, speaking truth into my life, and providing a place of rest. Supernaturally in his grace he portions all of that out in ways that I can receive and act on it. His timing is wonderful. 

He is more than just a God who goes around cleaning up our messes. He is proactively teaching us and putting us in spaces where the Holy Spirit can work in and through us for reasons that we may never understand. He is committed to redeeming our past, working in/through us in the present, and guiding us into maturity for the sake of our future.

I know that God is love, and that statement has taken on a whole new meaning as we have walked together through victory and struggle. I know that He is Lord, and that I want him guiding the way, and not simply sitting next to me as I dictate where we go.